THE DAY OF ENDING

I never thought she will do this. i never thought this end will come to her life.

how can she do this to vanya, yes she named her inanimate friend........(and she closes me, her only friend why is she going to do this with herself)

AFTER SOME TIME SHE REGAINS HER STRENGTH FOR THIS FINAL DECISION SHE IS GOING TO TAKE.

SHE OPENS ME BACK AND STARTS WRITING ABOUT HER LAST DAY.

"Today i am writing this for the last time for the day of ending, am not able to explain what i want to do and why i want to do, i suffered alot this year he left me he broke the 5 year of relationship of marriage and what was my fault in this i dont know why He did this to me but more painful for me is this day when i am going to end my relatonship with this diary too..... when am going to end this months of relationship with this diary and this life but i have too..... i cant anylonger keep writing my pain in this diary i cant keep wetting its pages, i cant cry anymore."

"I AM ENDING THIS"                              she wrote in big dark words

so this is the ending....it is, atleast for me...she kept writing.

 I WAS ASTONISHED WHEN SHE WROTE THIS. THIS IS NOT MY LAST PAGE THEN WHY SHE IS ENDING THIS RELATION OF HER WITH ME. WHATS SHE IS GOING TO DO WITH HER LIFE.

I DONT KNOW WHATS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW I AM A DIARY I CAN REGISTER HER FEELINGS BUT I CANT REACT TO THEM.

SHE CONTINUED WRITING...

"when i was all alone i had this diary, it was with me in the hardship of my marriage, it was with me he left me, it was with me when no one took my side, it was with me when everyone was agianst my life, fingers on my face are imprinted in words on my diary, it was with me when i wished for life for myself and its also with me on this day of  ending. i have no words to describe my life,just these pages overturned."

AT THIS POINT IT WAS CLEAR IN MIND THAT I WASNT ENOUGH TO UPHOLD ALL THE PAIN THAT SHE SUFFERED. HER PAIN IS MENTIONED IN ME BUT NOT SHARED WITH ME

(SHE CONTINUES)

"so now the final words...... i am going to end this for once and all. this is the only way to end this pain this is the only remedy. I AM SORRY MY DEAR DIARY tTHIS IS THE DAY OF ENDING

I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY NOW

SHE WROTE :  now i have to give all my time to my baby girl who is going to get birth from my womb tomorrow. now she is going to be the one who will listen me and my story, i will be her mother,father, i will be her everything.she will have all the perks of life that i cant have in this society of males.  i will protect her from all the odds like i protected her from her father,no he dont even deserve to be called her father.from now onwards my each and every second is for my baby girl VANYA...

YES THIS WAS DAY OF ENDING BUT SHE REVIVED ME IN REAL SENSE