I WAS ALREADY DEAD

it was late at night, whole room was filled with darkness, darkness was not only in the room but in her heart too which made her hollow from inside, I was looking through the small window of a room located in nowhere, I saw a girl of 5. lying down on the bed facing  the window through which she was looking at me with questions in her eyes..... she screamed at me if i can move the seas then why i cant move people, why i cant make them do good deeds. if  i can bring big waves touching the seas shore why cant i make the wave of harmony touch their heart? SHE ASKED ME IF I WAS DEAD? WHY I WAS SO EMOTIONLESS? WHY I SEE EVERYTHING AND STILL SHINES

SHE INSTANLTLY GETS HOLD ON HER VOICE AFRAID IF SOMEONE MAY HEAR HER

I was firecely red that night on my incompetency.

she laid down looking at the moon through the window, holding her cretch so tightly whenever any sound will pierce her ears, she will shrivel up with the fear, the fear of losing his father.

he left in morning and to her questions he just said that : PEOPLE ARE JUST ANGRY OUTSIDE THEY WILL CALM DOWN AND I WILL COME BACK BY EVENING`WITH YOUR FAVOURITE MEAL.

she knew somethingh was not right, she sensed the fear and shrivel in her fathers voice

before he left he told her not to open the door for anyone. it was late in night now and her father was not back, they were starving since 3 days and no one was allowed to leave their house, stored food got rancid ,nothing was left to eat, her heart was growling the same way as her stomach she was afraid whether his father will come back... she just knew when people are angry bad things happen but she belived in her father and what he said.

i looked outside of the room there was no difference but atleast inside the room there was some hope for the light .

building were burning,hearts were burning, it was more heat of hatred outside then the thousands sun combined.

RIOTS ON THE NAME OF GODS DESTROYED THE SOULD OF GOD.

SOULD WERE INFECTED

MINDS WERE DARK

EVEN THE HEAVENS SHRIVELED AND MOON TRIED TO COVER HIS EYES WITH THE DARK CLOUDS HOWLOING AND GROWLING IN A TRY TO REVIVE THE DEAD SOULS IN LIVING BODY.

I saw a man came running down the road to the room unable to get a hold on his breath, hiding something under his blanket. 

people were following him with torches and swords in their hand

what he did wrong was that he broke their rule and left his house

he was hiding the food that he BOUGHT with his own money but it was not acceptble to those protectors of law, so called man made laws of god.

he reached the door fiercely tapped on it, cried loud to open it while he knew it will not save him suddenly he reminds of her daughter inside, he told her not to open the door now... she got confused...her voice shriveled.... in the hurry of opening the door her crutch fell down she jumped on floor using her hands, her knee got injured ,she cried in pain of her inability, of thoughts that were piercing her mind ,of sounds she was hearing...she took a hold on her cretch and stood up to open the door but she was listening to the screams of her father.....his voice was full of fear and suddenly it was all silent ,no sound...she looked outside the wooden door thorugh the crevices, a  shirt soaked in red colour, her eyes were wide open voice was choked heart was beating too fast that it was breaking the silence of room.

She opens the door and finds her father sitting on his knees looking at her with a smile on his face, a dying smile...A smile that was horrifying for a 5 year old child, blood streaking down his face making it difficult to identify him, beard was dripping in blood, he was looking through that blood dipped eyes at his child,

She sat on her knees touched his cheek he screamed in pain yet he was smiling, she was crying. Faces of both were wet but they do differ in colour. He opens up his arm she hugged him...It was a last hug from his father he gave in her hand a soiled packet of food...

Se hugged her tightly their heart synced, with every beat his father skipped she skipped one too....

And then I saw two rays of hope and light vanishing in the darkness....Two souls,two lives,a relation,humanity all was dying in front of me.

IT WAS TONIGHT WHEN I REALIZED "I WAS ALREADY DEAD"